Am I really almost 40?

Well, my birthday is a week from today. What a different place I am than last year! On my 39th birthday, I was a married, (well, civil unioned, to be precise) 200+ pound mom with infertility issues, who had just stopped trying to have another baby a few months before.

I set a few goals for myself at that time, mainly the "Fit by 40" goal. I have not reached it, yet I am still farther along than I was last year. (200+ will not be in my vocabulary again.)

Now, I am a single, hot mama without a care in the world (well, except my amazing daughter) who (on most days) is ready to tackle the world head on. I want to squeeze the nectar out of life and not miss one single fucking happy moment. I want to do what people think I shouldn't, and have FUN in the process. I want to stop worrying about whether people think I'm a good person or not. I am a good person and *I* know it!!!

WOW! 40, here I come!!!!