I am having many different feelings today.
Sadness
Fear
Thankfulness
I am sad for so many of my NW friends who have recently had miscarriages. Hearts are being broken all over the place lately. It just keeps going on and on and it's very very sad.
I am afraid. Afraid that I will not get pregnant. Afraid that my body will no longer make a sticky baby or any baby.
I am thankful. Thankful for my little butterfly and my DP. Thankful that my parents are still here on this earth. Thankful that Butterfly is such a happy girl who loves the world and everything in it and is not afraid to try new things. Thankful for my friends (including the TTC ones.) Thankful that I not only have a place to live, but that it's ours and it's exactly where it is, woods and brook and all. Thankful that we have food to eat and for the good credit that allows us to buy that food and other things we need when we can't afford them. I'm thankful for the woods and the snow and the brook and the trails and geocaching. DP is not thankful for scrapbooking because it causes the debt to rise. I'm thankful for my ice skates. I'm thankful for my Wednesdays with Zephyr while the kids are in school. I'm thankful for missing my friends in New Orleans because missing them shows how much they mean to me. I'm thankful that most of my friends and family made it through the hurricane, though many are still struggling. I'm thankful for all of those who travelled to NOLA and helped wherever they could. I'm thankful for my body because even when I complain that it's not the right size, I am still thankful that I have it and it works pretty well and it gets me where I need to go without pain. I have so many things to be thankful for. Thankful that I can see the good in people and things, especially when fear and sadness try to take over.
Monday, November 26, 2007
Feelings
Posted by RainbowMomma at 9:06 PM
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4 comments:
That was beautiful, Shari. I'm so sad for all the m/c too. It's just not fair.
Wow, your "feelings" really made me think about my own tonight. It's so hard to have so many mixed emotions at the same time. Thanksgiving is a time to reflect on all we should be thankful for, and yes, like you, I have so so many blessings in my life...but yet at the same time, so many fears and frustrations. In comparison to so many others, my life would seem like a dream. I need to go to bed tonight with the full realization that I DO have a lot to be thankful for...pregnancy or not. Thanks Shari for making me realize that. :) You seem like a real sweet person.
Shari~
TTC sucks at times but it helps when you have so many wonderful things to be Thankful for...
I am praying next month will bring success and that you will have a sweet baby in your arms in 2008.
Reading your post reminds me to be Thankful for everything in my life also! I thank you for that!!!
Hey, I just surfed on over from the NW board. I don't always check blogs because most of them are set to private - but when I saw that your's wasn't I decide to say "hi".
Beautiful post - sometimes it really helps to think about the things that we do have. Thanks for sharing. =)
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